So, it has been over a year since I have written on here. I have had this nagging feeling lately that I need to start writing on this more. I think I have a phobia of writing things for others to see. There. I admit it. I am like that with facebook also. But, it is actually something I need to get over. I want to have a document of little memories, and big ones for that matter, that we can look back on. That is one reason why I enjoy scrapbooking so much. You capture a moment, and can look back on it. So, needless to say, my twins are 14 months old now and I haven't posted anything on here since right after they were born. I had a friend ask me if I had a blog and told me that she was interested in how life is with twins, etc. So, I made a commitment that I would start keeping up with my blog at least weekly. This year has been seriously crazy. I have gone through emotions and feelings that I have never experienced. There were times of sadness when there was serious lack of sleep, and I so much wanted to be my happy self, but struggled emensily. After the twins turned 6 months, life has gotten easier by the day. I still am amazed that I am mother to 5 children. I love it!! In having 3 children before the twins, I knew how it was to love ALL of my children unconditionally, but I had never had the bonding, sheer joy of reaching each milestone, the proud feeling of hearing "mama", the wanting to hold the infant in my arms for hours at a time, rock in the rocking chair, nurse, etc, times two. It is seriously DOUBLE the JOY. And, it has been such a unique experience seeing things through my eyes with all the training and experience I have with young children/child development. I have watched as they alternate in discoveries. One day, it seems that Jake has caught on to something (signing "more" for example), when two days later Jenna picks it up also. Or thinking Jake will walk first, becuase he learned to pull himself up and stand independently, while Jenna was still trying to stand on her tip toes just a few months ago, and she is the one who is walking now! And, I don't care WHAT people say about gender. I truly believe that gender is embedded and engrained in your DNA. Jake is all about the dinasaurs, making ROARING sounds, etc. While Jenna just wants her baby. And can say baby! It has been a tremendous experience and blessing to have them. I can't imagine my life any other way.